12/29/2006
"I believe we would worry a lot less and enjoy our lives a lot more if only we realise this truth: Our Abba Father is so strong that there is nothing He cannot do, and He is so loving that there is nothing He will not do for us!"i have not forgotten. i cannot. the truth is beautiful, something we can hold on to and trust in this ever changing world. in the midst of chaos, we can only truly find our perfect rest in Jesus. when i look to Him, thats when all my worries & troubles seem so small. when i cry out to Him, everything thats bothering me has no choice but to run away. He is for me. He who is bigger than all things, is for ME. thank God for today, it seems like the first time im staying home to rest & have time for myself. i dont know why i've been so busy lately or what i've been labouring for. i knw its 'labour' and 'worry' cos i wrote down somewhere that ' labour exhausts, and worry is labour'. to be honest, i havent been the most faithful and devoted thing. & i havent been rejoicing over blessings. usually i wld jump up & down and praise God when i see blessings like that. but lately, i feel so tired & old. too tired to jump about or even say a word of praise. i havent been talking to God much & i havent been talking about Him much either. i miss my Abba. i think i forgot the fact that He is always here with me and i miss Him. I know He misses me so much more. sometimes i wonder how my Heavenly Father, so almighty and perfect, could put up with such ungrateful & fickle brats like me. but He does anyway, He does put up with & love me despite and inspite of me. wow, such an amazing love dont you think? (: that's something humans can never achieve. unconditional love.
Now, despite of all i've done or have failed to do, i know He still loves me all the same. and THAT, makes me love Him more. that makes me more grateful & that makes me wanna run back into His arms and dance in His presence (: that is grace. grace grace grace grace grace. i thought i knew all about grace when i learnt about it at church. but till now, i am still learning about God's perfect grace. i still dont know all about it. to me, its impossible to know or understand fully the things of God. cos when you think He loves you this much, He actually loves you more. in the case of God, its always MORE, more and much more. ABUNDANCE. overflow, exceedingly, beyond all that you can ever think or ask. so i want to know MORE AND MORE of Him each day. i may have strayed from Him but He always leads me back on the right track.
its like, a kid lost in a crowded mall. it may have happened because he was too preoccupied with some toy. his fault. but after hours of searching, im sure his parents wld embrace him and be thankful for his return instead of reprimanding him.
okay bad example :/ , ahh, like a shepherd losing his sheep and finally bringing it back in His arms instead of beating the sheep to death. HEH
thank God, He still blesses me with showers of blessings & the company of great people despite all my crap. friends are one of God's greatest blessings, indeed.
i miss my lover btw. LOVER! see you on 1st jan (: you are supposed to organise the outing. silly pans. i dont think you'll see this. AHH O:
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